Rejection is part and parcel of the creative path that you have chosen. Being able to accept this is difficult. Allow yourself ten minutes of howling, clothes rending, hair pulling, chest beating, rolling on the floor kicking and screaming, bitter tear soaked grief; then stand back up, dust yourself off and move on. The prize you seek is a hands breadth away; reach for it, and reach for it again, and again and again; never stop reaching for it until it’s yours. Fight the good fight to make your dreams come true.
No retreat, no surrender, no quarter asked and none given.
Nulla Vestigia Restrorsum-No Steps Backward.
Bukowski, the poet laureate of skid row said it best:
Thanks so much for submitting *your script to the 2010 January Screenwriters Lab. With regrets, I am writing to let you know that we did not select your project for the Lab. Because of the wealth of original and compelling material submitted, we had to be extremely selective. The material submitted this year was especially strong, which made our decision particularly difficult.
Unfortunately, because of the large volume of submissions received, we do not have the resources to give individual feedback. We wish you all the best with moving your project forward and encourage you to consider submitting future work to the Program.
This is the first big thing I tried for and didn't get. I cried like a baby when I opened this email tonight. I've had an emotionally charged rough day today so it was just the worst icing there ever could be on my Thursday cake.
And me cry really, really ugly. Yup...tomorrow will DEFINITELY be a big sunglass day. I shall wear my new Tom Ford glasses I thought I'd lost. Yup.
And I'll wear lipstick.
No mascara. Why? Cuz I'll prolly cry again.
It really broke my heart and hurt really, really badly.
What say you about today's beer with the President and Vice President? Do you think it will accomplish anything regarding a national discussion on race relations? Do you think this could be the start of something good?
Hope all is well with you and that you're having a fabulous day. I read your blog every single day, like clockwork. My daily routine consists of checking my emails, account balances then reading your blog. Anywho this email was just to give you an update on how I've taken some of your words to heart. While I dont think I have low self-esteem I've just never "dressed" myself like I could or would have like to.
I'm one of those people who would say they dress for comfort. (Yes I now know how stupid that sounds) :)
I put a note on my mirror that says BE MORE VAIN and I've taken it to heart. Every morning I now get up an hour early and work out and take the time to apply just a hint of make up and NOT put my hair in a ponytail. It's only been a month but I see and feel the difference. Getting up early has afforded me some me time that I really needed and didn't know I was missing out on. I don't miss that hour of sleep, I feel great.
P.S. Please don't stop blogging but if you do I completely understand and got enough from you to last a lifetime.
I am FULLY aware of when I'm being irrational and I embrace it.
Makes me grow.
I got really annoyed with some shit trending on Twitter today. At first it seemed cutesy and then I kept reading. Big mistake cuz I got FUCKING annoyed.
I haven't cussed anyone out in probably about 9 months. Today however? I broke that streak cuz I cussed a ho out from the rooter to the tooter.
STAY OUT MY GOTDAMN INBOX!
With your socially awkward azz.
Today I got to see a side of someone I hardly ever see.
Mel came by for lunch today with E and I. Turns out E tried to give her his tomatoes on the sly. ROFL! I keep telling yall that kid been here before but yall don't believe me.
Mel believes me now. ROFL!
Robby came home today and suggested our Wednesday night movie be "Malcolm X."
A militant White guy might be dangerous.
We ended up watching our "Chappelle Show" DVDs.
My birthday is September 5th and I can't WAIT! Haven't made my decision yet as to whether I'm going to REALLY stop blogging but I'm leaning towards it seriously.
Just seems odd to be a 40 year old woman with a blog.
I love my husband so much and it makes me feel good that when he needs me to step it up...I do. Just as much as he takes care of me...I take care of him.
When Mel got here today Lucy behaved as if her long lost best friend had died and come back to life.
Imma fight that dog.
Yesterday E saw a garden snake go into our flower beds out front. That knowledge woulda been cool had he not informed me of it when I was sitting on the steps with my hand in the damn flower bed weeding.
Imma fight that kid man. SERIOUSLY.
I know I talk a good game but having E here during the day is SUCH a blessing. He is TRULY the world's funniest, most awesome kid. His mommy has done such a good job raising him. GO TSIPORAH!
I am blessed because I have E and Tsiporah in my life.
I wish I lived closer to my nephews. I miss them.
But they come with other people.
I've hit a stride in my life that makes me feel REALLY good about living.
The best conversations on the net these days are at Think Pretty Smart. Seriously. We had a convo today that was AWESOME! That damn TPS is on her ish. And no...we're not talking about the TPS reports from "Office Space." ROFL!
When I cuss someone out I usually think about it later and think to myself how I could have handled it differently. When I cussed that ho out today I got mad thinking about what I DIDN'T say.
FOLKS NEED TO STAY IN THEIR LANE!
There is a person in internet land who lies and lies and lies and lies and lies and lies and lies and lies. I wonder about the reason behind it and end up feeling sorry for them constantly. The last three lies have been so fantastic that I've burst out laughing at the mere mention of them.
And then I feel sorry for them again. Why? Because I believe that everyone deserves a chance to redeem themselves.
Yall gotta admit...I don't usually fug with someone unless they start it.
Don't start none won't be none.
I'm back on a really good schedule. Thank God.
It's almost August.
I HATE snow.
But yall know this.
I LURVE Halloween!
But yall know this.
I think I'm going to organize something fun for the kids this Halloween in our development.
We have a single father in our development with three children. He moved his mother in with him to help take care of the kids during the day. He works full time and is in school trying to make a better life for his kids.
His mother isn't a good child care provider.
The GFC are gone. Moved out last weekend.
Kids are in the park again playing.
*sigh* I feel some kinda way about that even as I don't know how to describe how I feel.
oneblackman had to go to the Emergency Room night before last. I'm worried about my oldest friend and Imma help his wife KICK.HIS.AZZ. if he doesn't get it together.
One of The Usual Suspects showed up with a cape on today to possibly help someone I love out today if it was needed. MY.FRIENDS.ROCK!
onefromphilly could outfit an Army with her artillery.
I heard someone say this today and I sat back and thought about it. The person talking was disappointed in how something ended up being pushed up against a VERY important deadline because of some missteps of the team they were a part of. They almost didn't get to do what needed to be done but pulled it off via a hail mary pass at the goal from way behind half court.
But they got done what needed to be done by not giving up and using every resource available to them.
After the person realized their hail mary pass made it...they exhaled and continued on with the rest of the day with a sense of championship. Like they won something big. Huge even. Like they pulled it all together hero style.
I TOTALLY wish I could take a pic of this couple that just showed up at the pool. They look to be in their mid 60's and are in the best shape EVER! Just...WOW! I soooooooooooooooo wanna look like that when I'm that age! Wow!
Do you ever think of what you're going to look like in your mid-60's and more? Considering the care you're giving your body today...do you think you'll be in good shape when you're older? Are you setting yourself up for a rough old age? ESPECIALLY those of us who are child free and won't have kids to take us back and forth to doc appointments?
DO YOU EVER THINK OF THE FUTURE YOU'RE SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DOING THE BEST YOU CAN NOW?????????????
I'm at the pool and I see a whole lot of kids who are overweight. The ones who are really overweight have t-shirts on with their shorts. Interesting enough is that the majority of them are boys. I only see one lil girl who is overweight.
I find it interesting that these lil boys are so body conscious that they have on a shirt even though it doesn't do anything to mask the problem.
I wonder...are they wearing shirts to cover their man boobs?
If you were a retired grandparent and your child and their spouse had to both work out of the home...would you provide childcare for your grandchild during the day? Or would you only do it sometimes because there is nothing wrong with daycare?