Monnie, thank you so much for "Man Child". Fertitily is something that people take for granted until it becomes an evident issue. I must admit that I was one of those folks who just assumed that I would settle into my career, find a fantastic man, get murr-rried and have babies. Then, in 2009, 3 months after my 24th birthday sans ropas started to be painful and my GYN made the dreaded fibroid diagnosis. He asked me what my plans for children were and I, like yourself, expressed that I wanted children with my HUSBAND. Because I was so young, he told me to watch and wait.
At that time, I met a good guy, panicked, and rushed along a relationship that never should have started in the first place. I was afraid that I had to beat a clock. In my head I had to get married QUICK, have the surgery QUICK, get preganant QUICK or I would be doomed. Thank God, that I woke up one day and realized how absolutely stupid my plan was. I switched to a GYN who I am much more comfortable with. She gave me my options and spelled everything out for me. We decided that Lupron, coupled with better nutrition (low estrogen/high iron foods) was the best decision for me. She also told me that I would, ultimately, have to have the fibroids (the size of an orange and a lemon) removed.
Even though I was floored, I knew that I had to make some changes. I left my boyfriend because, even though I loved him and he was supportive, we didn't have enough to build a relationship, let alone a marriage on. I got back in the gym, started eating better and put an end to the pity parties, although some days it still just gets too heavy.. .
So, at 26 I'm accepting the fact that I may not be able to ever have children.At times I'm OK with it and other times it hurts like hell. My biggest fear is that I will meet a wonderful guy but the thought of him possibly not being a father will scare him away.
Sorry for the novella, Monnie but I haven't even talked to my Mom about this. I knew, though, that you'd understand. Thanks for listening.