I just finished watching Jesse James' interview when he started crying about the child abuse he suffered.
I watched it and walked away.
I thought about how disgusted I get when I see people who have done fugged up ish and then get on television and start crying for sympathy.
And then...
I thought about my own life as a product of child abuse.
I recognized that I've done some pretty jacked up things all in the name of self-preservation and self-sabotage because I was so damaged by the confusion of the abuse.
I thought about how I felt one minute when my father was dad of the year and awesome one minute and then Freddie Kruger the next.
I thought about the in-between times when you couldn't trust his azz cuz you knew he was crazy and you've seen him snap.
I thought about how sometimes, even to this day, I get choked up simply THINKING about some of the shit that happened to me.
I OVERSTAND and, to be honest, I'm glad more people don't UNDERSTAND cuz then it would mean you dealt with that shit too.
And I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
That shit is a wound that never fully heals.
Did YOU see the interview? What did YOU think?
