And hungry. I was bone dead tired and hungry. Robby took advantage of the opportunity to suggest we order a pizza and I told him no...we needed a real dinner.
So I cooked a real quick and healthy dinner for us.
When you're on set there is always an abundance of food. See...if you're going to be stuck working for 10+ hours...there'd better be food cuz it's not like you can just drive off and leave. We make sure there is stuff for a continental breakfast, (fruit, pastries, juice, coffee, etc.) and we order a great lunch for everyone and have it brought to the set. During the day there is always lots of stuff just in cast you want a little taste of something. Cookies, crackers, Cheez-its, fruit, bars, fruit, etc. And LOTS of water.
There is pretty much always something to eat.
And yet...I always bring something else for me. My kinda food for my kinda stomach cuz baaaaaaby...my stomach is odderiffic and makes me PAY!!!!!!!!!
I said all that to say...I've noticed the habits of certain people when there is a lot of food around and it's not really all that good. Like...they eat...just because it's there.
Not a good reason.
NEVER a good reason.
I remember my mother being annoyed as shit with us growing up for eating something just because it was there and NOT because we were hungry. She called it being glutinous and the way she curled her lip while noticing you eating something just because it was there made you NEVER want to be greedy like that. Sure...sometimes you have a taste for something and yeah...I get that. It's called having a snack. Ten snacks a day however? You know...always grabbing something when you pass by a table of something and putting it in your mouth is 1,000 plus extra calories that you seriously didn't need.
And the people who do this are always the people who seem to be struggling the most with excess weight and will tell you they aren't happy about their weight in the least bit.
But if the food wasn't there...they'd be fine.
And that is perplexing to me.
Big time.
A couple of weeks ago I was checking out the Facebook page of a random "friend." Know how you have albums on Facebook for family, friends and events? This person had albums of FOOD. Pictures upon pictures upon pictures of food. Plates overflowing with the most unhealthy options of food I've ever seen. Three big pieces of fried chicken with mashed potatoes and greasy greens. Their "healthy" salad full of cheese, croutons, iceberg lettuce, crunchy salad "fixings" covered in goupy ranch dressing. All kinds of the most horrid, horrid foods. And always a great big azz glass of sweet tea, a can of soda or a 2 liter of soda on the table somewhere near.
And they were so fascinated by the food...they created albums upon albums upon albums of food just like this and their friends were commenting on just how delicious it all looked and how they "threw down" in the kitchen and then I saw one picture of the person that wasn't just a picture of their face (which is all they had online) because a friend had tagged them in another album and I got really, really sad.
I hear people say all the time that food is an addiction but I see so few people treating it as such. Nobody seems to be going to therapy regarding their addiction. Nobody is in a support group. Nobody seems to be focused on helping folks tackle it head on as I'd hope they would if you had a drug or alcohol addiction.
And yet...it's just as deadly. It just takes longer to kill you off it seems. Slowly and painfully.
*sigh*
And yeah...it has become the norm for folks to not say a word about it to your face because folks immediately perceive it as coming from a rude, evil, bitch when you'd think that if the person really cared about you...it was coming from a place of concern.
I watched folks eat all day just because it was there. Lots of folks didn't mind you...but they don't count because they eat to live.
Which do YOU do? Do you honestly feel that food is an addiction for you? Have you simply labeled it as such on your own? Are you an undiagnosed food addict? Have you thought about therapy? Would you? If not...why not?