I like my edge. I like knowing that I can jump up out a ditch with the best of them at a moment's notice and feel absolutely fine with my decision to go there.
Listening to someone talk about their mother being abused in a nursing home puzzled me recently. They were all calm and ish about it. Just basically talking about the plan of action, what they are doing, what's been done, etc. I sat there thinking...well...they are just the loveliest of people. A real responsible adult who is thinking about how their actions affect lots of lives.
Lovely.
Just...lovely.
I didn't share what I was thinking because I already know I'd pop off so badly behind something like that...it wouldn't even be right. Like...I can't even imagine being able to calm myself down enough to NOT pop off super crazy. Abusing my mother? MY MOMMY? WHO IS PRETTY MUCH HELPLESS? IN A NURSING HOME?
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
Carry on...I'm simply not evolved enough to be calm and handle this possibility like a responsible adult probably should cuz I already know...THERE WOULD PROBABLY BE BLOOD.
Is that bad? Probably. But I'd feel better with everyone knowing that right off the bat so if it ever crossed their mind to do so...they already know repercussions were in store that ain't got ish to do with the law BEFORE the law has been summoned cuz they are probably going to be summoning the law on me.
Again...I love my edge. I love that I can jump from nice lady to SIP in point 00000000000000000000000009 miliseconds.
Do you have an edge? Or are you one of those lovely, always responsible adults who handle business the text book way? What would give you the MOST edge? Messing with your kids? Your parents? Spouse? What? What brings out your EDGE?
